So this is going to be real and cut through all the socially correct garbage.
There have been a few times in my life when I seriously just wanted to run away. Like pack the suitcase, get in the car and just drive away and hide for a weekend, or two….or ten.
Everything just started to feel like too much.
Juggle work, juggle stress, juggle spouse, juggle kids…keep it all going, going, going. There were days where I was like, “I can’t do this and I just want to chuck it all in the f*ck it bucket and hide!”
Fantasies of being locked in a hotel room, in the Carribbean…or even Des Moines, sounded so perfect. Escape. Quiet. Peace.
It’s not that I didn’t love my family. I loved them immensely. But I just felt like I was failing them. That I wasn’t doing enough.
The job…yeah the job I did not love. It was sucking me dry. It had become a beast that demanded to be fed 24/7. My email constantly pinging at all hours of the day, my boss having no concept of boundaries. It always wanted more of me.
I literally felt like I was just half-assing my life. Running around trying to keep all the plates spinning. Doing everything ok, but nothing really well.
What it boiled down to was I was just on empty. I was doing for everyone else, and not giving myself any space to even breathe. All in the pursuit of being the “good” spouse, worker, mom…fill in the blank.
Why am I sharing this?
Well, because I bet I’m not the first person to feel this way.
And I want you to know if you’ve ever felt like this, you aren’t alone.
And you’re not a bad person.
This is your souls way of trying to get your attention. To tell you “Hey, something is broken here!”
Action step one..listen to that message and start cleaning out. You’ve got to make some space so you can catch your breath.
Don’t know where to begin? Don’t even have a clue of where you could make space?
Let me help you look at your situation with a fresh set of eyes…and a fresh perspective.
You can do this, but like anything sometimes you have to know when to ask for help so that it isn’t so hard…or lonely.
If I can help you on your journey, you know where to find me.
Let go. Let love.